Just rambling - as usual.

I've worked out hard this week!

This is my last official full week of "Pennance" from our Disney trip, and it feels good to be done with it.  However - I don't feel like it was as hard as it should have been.

I really love doing the 30 Day Shred, and I've been debating this entire time if it's something I want to keep in my routine or not?  I would love to branch out and try some of the Beachbody programs (like T25 or the 21 day fix) , but to be honest - I am a huge tightwad - and spending that much $$ on something like that really makes me cringe.  Eventually, I will probably have to, but for now, I'll just keep doing what I have available to me, and continue to save up. 

I feel like I am getting stronger, between the heavy weight lifting and the 30DS, I feel like my strength & endurance are improving.

I would really like to see a more dramatic size loss to correspond with my strength gains...  I feel like I have been this size forever, or at least, a lot longer than I should be, considering how hard and consistant I work.  I don't mind slow progress, but it could go a *little* faster. 

I went jeans shopping yesterday...  Now that was interesting for me.  I am down to 3 pairs of jeans that fit...  2 of which are hand-me-downs...  I don't mind hand-me-downs at all, but it would be nice to have one pair of jeans that really fit me well and aren't very expensive.

While I was shopping yesterday, I discovered that Levis no longer fit me...  I am not sure if it's my different body shape?  Or if it's their different cut?  Probably both.  Now they make their jeans with way more stretch than necessary...  and they are so high waisted...  They just look awful on me.  Which is a bummer, because Levis were always my go-to brand.

I also discovered, that in many of the Levis styles, I am a size smaller than I thought.  Most of the 12's were large on me, even with the added stretch, I could have easily gone down to 10's and still felt comfortable, but I was too lazy to go out and exchange sizes to try on.  It made me feel good though.  I am not sure I ever remember being a size 10?

For that matter... I don't feel like I am a size 12 (or 10 - whatever I am).  When I look in the mirror - I still see what I saw months ago...  Which is a huge barrier I really need to get past.  In the process of losing size, you dream of what you want to look like, but at the same time, you still see who you once were - and sometimes it's really hard to see progress or not have a distorted view of yourself.  I struggle with this daily. 

I hope all of you have a nice weekend, and enjoy the fall weather out there.  :)

D~